Friday, December 22, 2006: wonder.
i'm still wondering if i should stay in the winter camp comm, somehow i'm not sure if i should stay. i havent really been feeling very proactive for winter camp. i'm not as excited for winter camp as i was for ss camp. i wonder, should i really stay?
i wonder sometimes how God speaks to us; does He give us a feeling? does He give us a verse? does He reveal Himself through prophesy? does He speak to us in dreams? i think all are possible, right? but still, i wonder how to discern if its my own voice or its God's voice. i wonder if i only hear what i want to hear; i wonder if i only hear the good things and not the bad. sometimes i get so confused. sometimes i get lost on the way. but i'm glad that my God is a God of grace, i'm proud that my God is a forgiving God, i boast that my God is a God of love, i delight in the fact that my God will never let me go, whatever happens. sometimes i get scared of the prospects of that. sometimes i'm scared of failing Him yet again by sinning. i feel awful for somehow letting Him down. but i was reminded yesterday that salvation is a gift from God:
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.
Galatians 2:8-9When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature, God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the written code, with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; he took it away, nailing it to the cross. And having disarmed the powers and authorities, he made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them by the cross.
Colossians 2:13-15but i guess that doesnt give us the right to continue sinning huh? my dad once said, when i was feeling discouraged, that at least God has put in me a conscience that seeks to please God. i dont have to feel guilty about sinning, because every one has fallen short of the glory of God, what matters is whats inside.
i was also reminded, that God's power is made perfect through my weakness, therefore i should gladly boast in my weaknesses so God can shine through me, His power can rest on me. (
2 cor 12:9) i love that verse. i shows that i shouldnt be afraid to be weak and defenseless, it means also that God is my protector, He's the one who's got the power to overcome my weaknesses. (:
so i'll continue hoping in this God, i'll continue loving Him, i'll continue praising Him.
a shout of praise.
10:15 AM
